sorry for not posting for the past fews days ... haha i will not be posting about it for the past few days ... let talk about 21/09/08 ba i wake up in the morning i vomit out is blood ... for this few days when i cough is use to be like that i to no where i have gone wrong i feel so sick keep seeing doctor every time hais i am dam sick off it i totally like a sick ppl ... and suddenly i feel that my whole family ever my aunt my cousic all they treat mi very very good i feel like izzt i AM going to die soon just happened it on after my report out everything gone so weird for mi ever i go any where i have to call and ask my godmother and my parent or ever any one of my family i am just been control by lot of ppl ... and now i wan to go work to past my holiday time i have to ask one by one they will just say can if u wan work rite until u recover lor i tell them that if i don go work i got no money to paid this and that even i wan to buy my own thing also cannot ... they will just say ok lor u tell us wat u wan we can buy for u wan ... it really make mi feel that i cant do anything on it but i tell them no matter wat i will still go work and i promise them if i really cannot i will stop everything and i will take care of myself i will not let myself so tired ok .... i know u all care for mi and my dearest father i know u own self already like that and u dun wish to see mi be the 2nd wan i know u really care for mi all that u every time will say mei ar if u really cannot le then u must tell us dun keep wait until thing happened le then u say .... and i will always disappointed them i always say okok aiya i am ok la all that in the end thing happened again breathless come again and again and they keep have to bring mi to hospital even at nite and there one time nearly cal ambulance when i at my aunt there teaching my two small cousin but i always will say dun cal la i go home i will be alright in the end it did not ....they will keep worry my aunt will cal and ask my mother at midnight will wake up and ask mei ar ok anot ... i will say ok la nth le la ... i know u all worry sorry for it .... i know i keep been so stubborn on it .... hais .......i to know wat to do....
To all my family's and friends u guy must stay healthy ok must drink more water and take care of yourself ok ......
sorry to let u all worry ....
